I hate not posting. I feel like everything I ever said about making sure I post everyday is a big hardy lie. Most of you (except for the few Hallmark kids that read my blog) have no idea how hard this school is. Here is how it usually goes:
1.Wake up (if I sleep that night due to insomnia) at 6am only to find my other room mate in the bathroom before me, using all the hot water. Wait till said water is nuked & then shower at 6:45am.
2.Get ready. Which I always seem to rush since we...
3.Leave at 7:30am. Though school doesn't start until 8am & we live 2 miles away from it.
4.Classes till 12pm. Which include assignment after assignment that coincidentally all end up being due the SAME DAY of next week. Usually Tuesdays.
5. Lunch until 1pm.
6. Classes until 5pm. UNLESS I am night manger until 9pm.
7. Go home to usually an empty house.
8. Sit in my room until whenever.
9. (If I'm feeling saucy) go for a run.
10. Sleep (if any).
There are 10...yes only TEN steps to a 24 hour day. This is ridiculous. I should be having fun, living it up and being with my friends. Chea...hardly seem friendly if you ask me. People here are so strange. I don't mean strange as in 'i don't want to be around you because you give me the heebie-jeebies'. I mean how they are to each other I suppose. It's way too hard to explain.
I miss my family & the people that understand me for who I am. They are used to me & how I am as a person. No one here seems to get it.
The last week has been really rough. These are the kind of days that I can't stand. I'm usually a very optimist person but lately, I don't know if it's worth the effort anymore.
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=[ this made me sad.. I know you don't like the people here.. but I don't have friends here either. It's all so cliquey and nobody wants to be friends with you unless you're popular or skinny it seems. So if you want to be friends, I've been looking for one who understands me too!! This is Kayla by the way hahahaha
ReplyDeleteIt can get cliquey at times, but that's only if you get stuck on it. I just ignore all of that junk and talk to whoever I want, and it's worked fine for me. There really are some awesome people here, you just gotta talk to everyone and find them. :]
ReplyDeleteAnd I think we've been having lots of fun around those ten things, even if the fun is still at school. :P
Everyone has their down days. But you can always find a bright side to be optimistic about somewhere. :]
Its ok Lisa -
ReplyDeletethe first few months of school are always the hardest. I hated my freshman year until about thanksgiving. The hard part about your program is that its so intense. Makes everyone a little crazy. But you'll definitely make it. Remember what you are there for, focus on it and when it pays off you'll be glad! Plus, after you get back to the real world for a few years you'll want to go back. Even with the drama. Trust me!
You can always find me! Love you and I am SOOOO very proud of you.
Kayla- Haha Kayla, I love you! I like everyone here. I love people in general. I don't hate anything that is human or breathes. Cept murders...they don't fly in my book! Don't be sad though. I just get in those days where I'm just one giant sour puss about everything but i'm generally a pretty optimistic gal!
ReplyDeleteMassachusetts-OH HEY! You know me so well! I love you!
Jess-Thanks Jess! I love you too!
I'm all about the lovin' today haha.