Day 74-77: The deed is done...

So I did what every college kid does at least once in their college life experience...I got hammered.

Yes, shame on me for drinking at college. No, seriously, shame on me. I never was a drinker nor do I want to become an avid one. I've only been drunk a totally of 3 times in my underaged life time. It also has been a while since I have drank & with all the stuff that I've been through this year & how it recently started to eat at me, I thought 'what the hell, why not?' At that point a decided to 'party hardy' for the first time in my college life.

Hell if I remember what happened last night. It's scary waking up & not knowing what you did a night post (that means the night before). From what Maine made it out to seem, I was an obnoxious moron but I think she may have over exaggerated. Everyone else said that I was a blast & super funny which is much more believable in my case. Regardless of what everyone thought, I did something that was absolutely stupid on my half. 13 shots, 2 glasses of wine & 1 beer later:


I told Colorado I liked him.


Point blank, flat out told him. I mean, it was inevitable. I would have told him eventually, I just wish my stupid mouth could have waited for a more private time rather than the moment where my kitchen was chalk full of our friends. I can't help it, I'm an open person sober but a VERY open person when intoxicated. Pretty sure I said something about how 'No Shave November isn't doing me any justice'. Anyways, I figure everything happens for a reason & what's done is done; life goes on. I'm pretty sure he doesn't feel that same about me anyways, which is okay but upsets me a little since I dig him a lot. Then again...who doesn't in our school. I'd drop dead in awe if I caught his eye just a slight bit more than any other chick that thinks he's fly. That's his decision, however. All I can do is be myself & take what's thrown at me, let it be good or bad.

Hangovers suck by the way.

Also, here is an interpretation I did of my teacher during studio time. Minus a smile.



He also has a copy on his office door.