DAY 6: The blame game.

It seems like i'm not myself. I can't blame anyone but myself for that. Ever since Kevin did what he did, I haven't been the same. I tried to get back to my 'normal' self as hard as I can but I can never quite get over it yet. To these people out here what I am is 'normal'. They are going to know me as the quiet, boring, unsure girl than I am putting off as. I don't want to act like how I am but it's easier said than done going back to the outgoing, spontaneous, fun, nice girl that I was. I guess when Kevin did what he did, a part of me died but i'm much alive...physically at least; mentally, not so much.

We didn't do much today. I woke up at 2pm & we all just kind of sat around since today for the first time it was actually nice out. "Can this be true? Am I really on Lisa's blog?!" Yes, I said it. IT WAS FREAKIN' GORGEOUS OUT! I sat on the porch reading & sipping on my tea like it was fine wine until Alaska came over. We stood outside for a while waiting for the falsely broadcasted rain. It was supposed to rain but it didn't. It just looked like it was going to rain today but it actually is starting to rain now. Hurricane weather says everyone, so I reckon I should probably push pin everything down (since we have no nails in the house). Anyways, we went to Louisiana's house to met his room mate but he was out with his family. Maybe tomorrow I'll have a paragraph about the new person. Add him to the list of states.

Alaska also ate his first perogie today & it totally blew his mind, just thought I would throw his excitement in there for him since I was just about as excited for him.

One thing I did do today was hang up my owl decal Florida gave me. She rocks. Florida not the owl because i'm pretty sure it's a boy owl, but he rocks too. I still haven't found a name to sport him with though.

Tomorrow is the big day. I touch the ocean for the first time in 20 years. Hoorah! Apparently i'm deprived because of ^^ that fact. Maybe for a few mins my old self will come back tomorrow when I finally touch the ocean water and finally realize how small my problems really are.