Day 58-59: 3 more days

Thoughts run through my mind more than a breath. I can usually read people like a book but there is only one person who I can't quite figure out. In all honesty it's annoying me like none other.

There is a lot of things people don't know about me. Here are a few that might surprise a few of you:

My mind is complicated & I don't expect anyone to 'get' me.

I wanted to study medicine before I decided to study art instead.

I hate being scared.

The last time I slept for more than 8 hours was 3 months ago.

I have never been in love.

I only bake when I'm upset.

I only paint when i'm aggravated.

90% of the time i'm not happy but I put on a happy face.

Those aren't the most important things about me but they are the ones that came to my mind right away.

These autumn days are getting more intense. The air is chilled & the trees are more colorful than a box of Crayons. I'm not going to lie, most of these days I feel like crap. Not the 'I've got the sniffles' kind of crap, I mean legit crap. I miss Kevin so much & most the days I feel like i'm the dead one rather than him. It's blunt, I know but it's how I feel & unlike watching my words like I did with the Hallmark graduates, this is a subject they can't complain about.

3 more days & the surprise will be relieved.

Also, Shaun White has awesome hair. If you don't believe me, take a look see for yourself...he also has his shirt off.

<---No, I didn't stalk him...

Day 51-57: All that's in between

You all probably hate me since I haven't updated in a week. Don't hate. Life is too short to hate. I have just been super busy with school & I promise I will from here on update daily.

Usually, I would put the day & what I did on said day but in all honesty, I have lost such track of everything. My mind is in some state that it hasn't been in a while. It's hard to explain with out sounding pitiful upon myself, so i'm not going to go into depth of it.

I will however, tell you what happened today & yesterday.

Yesterday: For some God foreboding reason I made the suggestion that we go see 'Paranormal Activity 2'. So, we did. To my surprise, it wasn't as scary as the other one, just loud, really loud. Though it did scare Massachusetts & I enough to make the decision for him to sleep over. After the movie however we went back to Colorado's where they thought it would be a funny idea to scare people. We watched a Disney movie (Beauty & the Beast to be exact) to try & rid the bad thoughts of ghosts & such from our minds. All in all, we all fell asleep. I woke up laying on Colorado's shoulder. How that kid can sleep sitting straight up is beyond me. But, kudos to him for having such mad skills. At 2am, Dana & I left Colorado's & went home to sleep.

Today: For the first time this whole time I have lived here, I woke up before noon on a weekend. For a reason of course. If any other reason, my butt would still be sleeping in my humble bungalow. Mostly all of us went to our friend's breast cancer walk. It was super fun. England was there on the hunt for a good picture. Swear to God, his accent is amazing. I know he is probably reading this & I was going to put something that he said today in here that made me laugh, but I can't remember for the life of me. So, sorry England!

Later tonight Virgina, Maine & I are making dinner & sippin' on some fine wine like the class Americans we like to present ourselves as...yeah right.

Also, I finally got some photographs up from school on my Flickr. So, go check it out since i'm too lazy to upload every single one to my blog.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/lisamarieshaver/sets/72157625206318786/

Day 48-50:Wompus

I'm starting to lose track of the days.

Day 48, Friday, 15th: Thank God it was Friday. I'm not being modest when I say that. This week sucked but I guess it could have been worse. All though after school was probably one of the most enjoyable ones I have had since I left Chicago. It was slightly chilled out & super windy. Mostly everyone was complaining that it was super cold but I LOVED it. Perfect autumn weather. When I got home from school, I was alone in the house, which is totally fine by me. I went in my room & threw all 3 of my windows wide opened.

Do you ever get those days where you just get the biggest sweet tooth & seriously consider eating a bag of sugar? No? Well, I do. That said, I went to this bakery down the street called '2nd Street Bakery'. I can't put into words how ridiculously great that place is. The staff was super friendly & the sweets, ugh don't even get my started. I got a pumpkin cheesecake tart, a lemon square that was the size of my hand & a chai tea. I went home & sat on my porch sippin on said tea eating the hell out of the sugared goods.

That night I went over to Massachusetts' & Canada's to have dinner with them. I had Massachusetts try vegetarian meat which he really enjoyed. I think I may have converted him. After dinner, we went & saw the movie 'My Soul to Take'. It was rather good & there were no obnoxious people in the theater, which is always a good thing.

Day 49, Saturday, 16th: Slept in till 1:30pm. Jebus. Regardless, Massachusetts & I went to a pumpkin patch out by his house. OH MY HELL. I can't stress you enough how much I LOVE pumpkin patches. I of course bought a pumpkin the size of a house. We don't have pumpkins nearly close to comparison to these bad boys. They also had farm animals I found out after nearly dying from a heart attack when a cow moo'd. They had a goat, a cow, chickens, ducks & this pig names Ms. Truffles. That name seems scary accurate for that pig. That pig was WOMPUS! She was the sweetest thing on this green Earth though. I always thought pigs were soft but they aren't. They feel like a bunch of cat whiskers on a pig body. Weird...

Anyways, after the pumpkin patch, we went to his house so I could see his epic barn & meet his family. Swear to God, the kid is the long lost son of a Kennedy or something. My house in Chicago is total weak sauce compared to his. His family is SUPER nice too. His Mom & brother Alex are my favorite so far. His Mom reminded me of my Mom so much, maybe that's why I took a liking to her right away. His brother Alex is fun, I can tell. He's also got some awesome hair.

After meeting his family, Colorado asked us to go candle pin bowling...don't know what it is? Well, neither did I! So, I Googled, like always. I suggest you do it too. We also got to meet Colorado's friend from, well, Colorado. She's a total sweetheart.

After bowling, we went to Colorado's & watched the first 'Pirates of the Caribbean' movie where I ate my first BIG Cheez-It (Google it) & fell asleep on the floor under everyone's legs. Surprisingly, comfy might I add.

Day 50, Sunday, 17th: Today is still young, so I might add more into this entry later tonight now that I finally figured out how to edit entries but mind you I will always put 'EDIT' at the bottom if I add/change anything. So, for all you people who thought I edited my entries as of before Friday, you were wrong. Time to accept it.

Anyways, I have to go help Massachusetts & Alaska with a shoot & then I got me a pumpkin to carve.

Day 47:Welcome to Colorful Colorado

This week...it's something else, let me tell ya.

We had studio for the first time & like this whole week, I wasn't feeling too hot. I got super aggravated & was annoyed beyond all belief. On the bright side, I did get some good photographs.

Later that day I found out for some damn reason, none of my photos were being saved to my hard drive but instead on the computers I imported them on. Tomorrow will consist of me searching for said computers to try & get all my photos back before they get deleted.

Colorado made my day some what enjoyable. I don't think he reads my blogs so, I guess confessing this on here is the safest route. I'm starting to dig him. I joke with Maine & whenever I ask her if she thinks he likes me she says 'shut up, he totally likes you' so, I asked her if saying 'hey, I think you're pretty fly. Do you dig me too?' was a good way to ask him. Her response was a bust out of laughter, which made me laugh. I thought nothing more of it. Anyways, I can't tell if he likes me too or not. He seems like an all around decent human being who is just kind to everyone. Regardless however, I still 'think he's pretty fly'. God, I sound like a 17 year old school girl.

Yesterday, he & I went for a walk after I took a 4 hour power nap from 5-9:30pm. We walked & talked for a good hour where I, for the first time told someone who I barley even know, about what happened to Kevin. I won't even tell my readers about what happened to him, let alone a guy I have only know for a good month. I guess have trust in him. I spilled my guts like none other & he just listened. I will admit that I almost cried a few times but timed it ever so well to make it sound like I was out of breath from walking up a huge flight of stairs we found leading to a church. I don't think he caught on, which was good. I think he kind of trusts me too since when I asked him if anything had happened to him lately that was sort of melancholy; he told me. I'm of course not going to say what he told me but it showed me that he trusts me, I would think.

Maine & I went grocery shopping where I stumbled upon vegetarian bologna. Just because it says vegetarian on the label, don't automatically assume it's going to taste nasty because it didn't! If my room mates liked bologna (fat chance of that), I could have probably swapped them out & they wouldn't have told the difference. Mind you why I'm rather thrilled about finding said vegetarian friendly bologna is because I haven't had a fried bologna sandwich since I was 12. I think 13 years is a long time not to eat such an awesome thing. Anyways, I just ate one & I can now sleep a happy women.

Correction: Don't ask me why I thought it was 13 years. I guess running on 1 1/2 days of no sleep tends to screw with the part of your brain that does math...now if only I had that part to begin with..

8 years; not 13.

Thanks anonymous reader.

Day 41-46: These are the days

I know, I know I sounds like a broken record. Again, I'm sorry for not keeping up with my daily posts. In all fairness however, I have a legit reason; my internet has been out for most the time. Anyways, I'll tell you what happened the last few days.

Day 41, Friday, 8th: We had critique. I was excited since I thought for sure my photos would make it up on critique BUT for some reason my photographs didn't get into the system (computer server) & never got 'turned in'. Bullshit. My school is EXTREMELY strict about that kind of stuff. So, even if I were to go talk to a teacher about it, they wouldn't care. I love the teachers but man, oh man are they strict. I guess it will pay off in the long run though since the industry doesn't care either.

Day 42, Saturday, 9th: Oh jeez, hell if I remember back this far.....................OH! So, I went to Maine with Maine (odd to type) & got to touch the ocean for the SECOND time. I must say I love Maine (the state but also my room mate) oceans more than Rhode Island oceans even though they are probably...the same ocean. Anyways, the houses there are to DIE for. They are so architecturally built in such an odd manner. All the houses are huge & triangular in a sort. Very gorgeous though. One day I will have a house on the ocean but like a victorian house, not a trianglular one; triangles freak me out. I also got to go to an apple orcherd to help Maine with a photoshoot with a 2 month old. Apple+2 month olds+photography a pleasent Lisa. Enough said.

Day 43, Sunday, 10th: I neglected to mention that I spent a good majority of the weekend with Colorado. Sunday, I spent the whole day with him. He took a picture of my eyes for some reason, he said that he likes the color of them. I don't know, I don't think they are anything special. We then went to his house & just bummed around. It doesn't sound like much fun but I assure you it was.

Day 44, Monday, 11th: No school! Blah, I would have much rather been in school. I woke up at 10am to music so it's not like I could sleep in. I then laid in my room until the afternoon doing nothing, literally dying of boredom. I forget what else I did that day besides dealing with ignorance & a giant ego that could take out a small village.

Day 45, Tuesday, 12th: Oh God. You all know how much I HATE lectures...well, today was the best day ever. LECURE ALL DAY LONG!! (hope you caught that slight hint of sarcasm). Besides the suckish day at school; we got out first grade sheet. I got $850 out of $1,000. Which is pretty good for my first assignment I would guess. All I'm going to say is I can't STAND when people gloat.

Day 46, Wednesday, 13th: It's official. My dimple piercings are no more. So sad that they lived sucha short life. I accidentally pulled them out when I went long boarding with Colorado. Oh well, it just wasn't meant to be...for now. Today, was a not so good day. Ever wake up & just know that it's going to be a rough one? Yeah, well that was today. I got a hug from Colorado though when I told him that I was having a bad day, so that made me smile at least. England is currently trying to show me what an American speaks like. For some God awful reason he thinks all Americans sound like inbred hicks...

Day 39-40:Puddle jumpin'

Again, I apologize for not writing last night. In all honesty, I was way to tired.

Yesterday, was an awesome day for the most part. The only crappy things that happened was dipping my coat in perogie oil & getting attitude from a very pissy mom at the market. Those were weak sauce compared to the little boy who told me I had a lot of holes in my pants & when I replied with 'someone pushed me down when I was playing with them & he replied with 'well, that was mean'. That little boy made me realize how much I love innocence.

I realized how much I love Grace & how she is a very likable person. I went for a 'run' last night with Colorado so Maine, Massachusetts & Alaska stayed behind. They video chatted with Grace while I was gone. They all seem super excited about meeting her...even Alaska...that kid shows barley any emotion besides happy nervousness. Well, anyways, we went for a run which lead to some exploring, swinging & puddle jumpin'. That kid is so much fun. I feel like I can be myself around him & not worry about him judging. After he walked me home, explained why we were soaking wet & he said his 'good-byes'; I laid on my kitchen floor like a starfish & swayed. I won't say why I had my little hissy fit but I promise you my kitchen floor is happy I did, it's spotless.

Today was a good day too. I didn't have to wake up till 11am since we had a field trip to Northampton. I spent the day with Alaska & Massachusetts which was mostly shopping...we finished our shoot within a hour. I also convince Massachusetts to get his nose pierced. While he was getting said piercings, Alaska & I got into probably the closest thing to a deep conversation that we will ever come into ground of. I like talking to him though. He's not afraid to say what's on his mind if the moment comes up.

This entry is early, I know but i'm pretty sure nothing excited is going to happen else wise.

Day 38: I live in a house of death

Interesting day.

Lectures...I should start sitting next to people who are well caffeinated instead of Alaska who makes me sleep just looking at him. It was like a train wreck of overly tired college kids in our row. I was so tired, that I woke up not knowing where I was & almost yelled at Alaska to get out of my room.

<---Result.

During break, however, I did find out that England read my blogs. I'm pretty sure I blushed like a tomato. That boy can talk to me for hours about a subject I really don't give a rat's ass about & I'd be okay with it. You rock England!

I only had one class today in the afternoon (hell to the yeah) which meant I stayed home for 3 hours, which also meant...I got bored...fast. So, I ripped up some newspaper & made the print into nail polish. BOOYAH, for creativity! Later in the afternoon, I started knitting Colorado's hat. 15 mins went by when I heard a huge 'BANG'. That's when I finished my stitch (never leave a row, in knitting, unfinished because you will let whatever is trying to kill you, kill you if you drop a stitch) & booked it like a bat out of hell with flailing arms to my closet. With the neighbors I've got, I thought someone shot at my window. I then grew a pair & looked out my window. There, wobbly like a Weeble (Google it) walked a bird. A damn bird. That's the bang I heard. with that thought, the bird fell off the roof & left nothing but a trickle of detached feathers to follow...my house is death proned, I swear.

We had a perogie night for dinner, where I made some not so diabetic friendly bars for dessert that Florida just absolutely loved. Colorado & his room mates had their first perogies too. Must say, I've done a lot of perogie converting since I've been here. I would love to see how they would be at Perogie Fest. I also tried to teach them how to knit...the picked it up rather fast but I don't think I made a great teacher. Anyways, him, his room mates & I went to their house & watched 'The Karate Kid'. It was very fun but their house still creeps me the hell out.

Also, I laid in cupcakes today...twice. Thank you Colorado.

Day 35-37: All that's in between

Don't get your panties in a bunch. I didn't delete my blog nor did I stop writing.

The only reason I didn't post for a good 3 days was because I had nothing to say. Well, I did but for the sake of being harassed, I didn't post. Problem solved though. Anyone who gave me so much as a 'you're ignorant'; I blocked them. Praise the lord for the 'block button'!

For the recent delay of posts, I will tell you what happened over the last few days.

Day 35: Saturday. I was still kinda peeved about ex-Hallmarkers adding me on FB just to say how much I suck & how 'disrespectful' I am. All was well though when I went to my first rodeo. Yes, this city gal went to a rodeo. On the way Arkansas, Maine & I found a herd of cows which always seems to excited me, so I made them stop & we pet the hell out of them...tried to at least. But we got a picture!

I must say, I am rather fond of cowboys. I like their very toned cowboy butts in the tight Levi's. It just does things to me, I swear.

To add to the awesome night that was already in progress, we got moved down to 6th row rather than 3rd in the balcony.

Day 36: Sunday. Cleaned my room most of the say & I honestly felt SO much better with a clutter free room. If you're ever aggravated, I suggest you take it out on your room. CLEAN THE HELL OUT OF IT! You will fell SO much better, I promise. The rest of the day I spent with Maine which included eating breakfast for dinner, baking cookies/truffles & watching 'The Backup Plan'. I also went for my first run since I got here yesterday. I ran by Colorado's house in which I stopped by & said my hellos. He gave me a tour of his house...man oh man am I jealous. In case he is reading this, I'M JEALOUS! But I think he got that when I told him a good 15 times on Sunday. Anyways, I finished my run downhill...let me tell ya, Massachusetts is one hella scary place to run alone...near Halloween time. Talk about heebie jeebies.

Day 37: Monday. School dragged! It just wasn't a good day today since I woke up a pessimist since today marks 8 months of Kevin's absence. For the sake of everyone though, I kept a happy face on. I gave Massachusetts, Arkansas, Virgina, Louisiana & Colorado some of my truffles I made yesterday; they all seemed to love them. Maine & I also went to Colorado's for a movie night where I found out that he used to be up in Wisconsin where i'm from. Not, from from, but have a lake house at. This just proved me how small the world really is. It seriously blew my mind so what more could I have done but gone home & tell my mom! Funny as it is, he did the same. Cute guy, that Colorado is.

These are the days that could make me or break me. I just wish I was the person I was 8 months ago. The carefree, friendly, fun to be around girl but she's on vacation at the moment. Hopefully she will be back soon. 8 months is a rather good & long vacation, I think it's time she comes home.

<--last picture he took of me.