Day 153-155: This will change everything

I suppose it is all bittersweet. What am I talking about? Well, I can't tell you yet but you will find out soon enough.

This will change everything.

On another note: I am now a 'published photographer'. I'm not used to saying it out loud yet since I still would argue with anyone who called my photographs 'art'.

This entry is short but it's 1am & I'm overwhelmed along with exhausted with what the day threw at me. Besides, there isn't much to say.

<--Inspire.

Day 143-152: Johnny Cupcakes & Impossible Project

Welp, that new years resolution of keeping up the blog went down the crapper fast. Oh well, i'm only human. Along with being human I'm also a college kid which at the moment is eating me alive.

We just finished a final & now we have sixteen more assignments to do where we can't use any Hallmark students of faculty members. Oh & on top of that we can't use the model more than once

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this is going to be tough...BUT i'm up for the challenge nevertheless!

Part of me has a plan up my sleeve. None but Florida, Massachusetts & Alaska know about to help me with my 'finding models' problem.

On another note I'm rather excited to get to shoot the Impossible Project & Johnny Cupcakes...never heard of them you say? BLASPHEMY! Well, here's the links anywho...

http://www.the-impossible-project.com/ <---Impossible Project

http://www.johnnycupcakes.com/blog/ <---Johnny Cupcakes

Maybe this is when things start to turn around for me. I sure hope so.

Also, for all you kiddies out there who want to put a face to the state names...well, we got a Youtube channel!

http://www.youtube.com/user/HallmarkGoons?feature=mhum

I'm all about linking it up today.

Day 140-142: It wasn't lust

It's been a while, yet again. We are in the middle of our Phase II final which is the cause of the lack of posts.

As I'm typing this, Massachusetts is to my right eating vegetarian sloppy joes I made for dinner. Along with that, 'The Goonies' is playing on TV. Today is a good night.

Today was an odd day to say the least however. I spent it with Massachusetts but that's not why it was 'odd'. I just felt odd. It was one of those days.

We went to shoot my environmental at the movie theater we have here in town. It went by rather quick & I was done in no time. We were on our way back to the car when we passed a place called 'Ravens'. It's a book store & I always see it whenever we go to the picture show or to the coffee house next door to it, but it was never opened. Today it was. Massachusetts saw me eyeballing it so he insisted that we stop. We walked in & were greeted by this man dressed as if he just come out of circa 1940. Very handsome man if I might say so myself. We walked around while he played music that I don't even know the genre of. Eventually I found what I was looking for which was an Edgar Allan Poe book. I went to buy it & talked to him a little but it was all brief. He handed me my receipts & I glanced up at him to find his eyes intensely staring into mine. I smirked at him, grabbed my books & headed to the exit. As I held the door behind me for Massachusetts I looked back at him through the glass window of the door & saw him looking at me as I left. We made a connection.

Everyday I will be doing a good deed. I need to start believing that my reason is anything but useless. The one good deed can change a person's day or attitude. A little thing like that can go a long way.

Day 139: FAIL

My hair is naturally auburn but I dyed it a dark maroon.

I have blue eyes that are green on occasion.

My skin is pale but is elegantly decorated with freckles.

My smile can light up a room.

The curls in my hair are of my mothers.

I've got a button nose.

My hands are small.

My voice is not one of a child but can sing a melody of innocence.

My heart is big & sensitive to things you wouldn't think would bother me but is not one to hate.

I love myself.

I haven't said that ever in my life, so the above description is anything but a degree of narcissism or arrogance. Those are things people have said about me; I could beg to differ & could argue each point they made but I'm learning to believe them.

One day I will find that guy that is everything I wanted. I'm okay with waiting. Any guy that I have liked before...well I figure it just wasn't meant to be & i'm okay with it now. The way those guys made me feel is nothing compared to how I will feel when I finally meet the guy I want to be with. I can't help but wonder if I have already met him or if I still have yet to be in the same room as him. I always wonder that stuff. I wonder what I will love about him, what his flaws are, his attitude towards things...etc.

Last night I was in a mood where I sat on my old trunk leaning on my windowsill & watched the snow fall. There is something about about snow falling that makes the world seem so peaceful & innocent. I love that feeling. The feeling of everything being okay.

I woke up today to school being canceled because of all the snow. About three feet fell as I slept. My only logical thought was to gear up & trot my happy ass through it. I tried to hurdle a snowbank but failed miserably.

If I were to die today, I would be okay with it. I'm proud of the things I have accomplished & I regret nothing; absolutely nothing.

Also, my Hulk Hands came in the mail today. Yay!

<--New England FAIL.

EDIT: Ass=tush. I need to stop swearing.

Day 137-138: Recreation

I didn't post last night which 'technically' breaks my resolution I said I would keep to but to all fairness, our internet was jacked last night.

As of yesterday I have yet another piercing. Not new per say but I just re-pierced it is all. 'IT' being my wrist. Massachusetts got the glorious position to help in my poking. He was a trooper & I love him even more for it. Colorado however doesn't seem to like it very much. I don't think he is one for 'peculiar' piercings. Alaska's only response when he came over for lunch today was 'IT HAS RETURNED' but I think he's indifferent about it all; he was never really one to judge. My body isn't talking to kindly to piercings lately but it better get used to it. The count is now eight extra holes on my face/arm area.

Ohio, Maine, Massachusetts & I went to the movies to see 'The Fighter' last night. It was an excellent movie & gave me some photography ideas. It's based off a true story about a boxer from Lowell, MA which isn't far from us at all. To my surprise the guy (Micky Ward) still lives there & has a gym in which he trains boxers at. I got him number & the address to the gym so I'm going to call him & hopefull see if I could take photpgraphs for school.

I should get a bike. I know as soon as spirng come (which couldn't come soon enough) I'm going to be itching to go riding.

These thought are random, trust me, I know. I'm re-reading this entry & I literally said out loud to myself how ridiculously random facted this on is.

Yesterday, Kevin would have been 51. Funny, when you're dead how people start listening.

<-- I have to recreate this as a photograph.(Alex Pardee)

Day 136: This is a change

Change. Just what I needed.

My hair is a bloodish red now, my cheeks have two extra holes in them, my makeup is smokey & my attitude is great.

I like the way I look & if anyone has a problem with it, well tough nuts.

I spent my entire weekend at school which is fine by me. I started to shoot my final which I had Alaska model for. If you do not know already & I'm sure that he's reading this & probably getting sick of hearing it BUT he's pretty much a new aged Johnny Depp. I'm sure to remind him of this obvious fact every time I photograph him.

On another note. I'm in the process of sketching out Massachusetts huge painting of Monroe I'm painting for him. This project has got me kind of excited since he has no idea what's in store for his poor painting.

Here are the two pictures of the day that I owe you all...for some reason when I post these on the interweb they don't have as much quality as my originals.

Day 135: Welcome to the brand new

There are just some days where I feel 'okay'. Not great but not crappy. Today was one of those days. I just didn't think about anything. I didn't think about who I liked, who I missed, my family, my friends, my soon to be pet, what I was here for, why things happen, etc. I pretty much turned off my mind & put it in self pilot mode. Who I am really as a person was not there for a good half of the day, just my preset mind was. It was a weird feeling I assure you.

I wanted change, so I dyed my hair & am going to re-pierce my cheeks either tomorrow or tonight. I figure once I graduate I will have to take them out if I want to get a 'real job' or have anyone take me 'seriously', so I might as well have them while I can.

I thought of three books series that I want to photograph. My goal is to get at least one of them out by graduation.

These blogs have been pretty bland but I assure you they will get saucier within the next week. I'm approaching the world in a totally different attitude. For the most part I'm not taking anything seriously unless it's my photography or if something tragic happens (which I doubt will since the last year was my 'tragic' year). I figure if I'm having a shitty (<--I will not swear after that one, I promise) day, I might as well just laugh about it & be happy that I GOT to live another day.

As for the photograph of the day...well I have one but I forgot to put it on my computer from my hard drive so I could upload one tonight, so I'm sorry but I will give you two tomorrow, promise. Alright, I have to go wash this hair dye out; it's starting to burn.

Day 134: We Can Do It!

I don't like having no spending money while I'm at school. I also don't like having no car. Whoever said that going to school a thousand miles away was 'do-able'...yeah, I'd like to see them do that; defiantly when you have to do shoots & don't have any means of transportation. It sucks.

Massachusetts finished editing that photograph I was telling you all about yesterday. I must say that I look extremely disproportioned without piercings in.

I can't wait till spring. I can't wait for people to stop being egotistical dickwads too.

I think he did rather well...if I don't say so myself.

<--Oh hey, speaking of Massachusetts; here's my photo of the day which he happens to have his shirt off in!

Day 133: Tired

I'm tired of being tired.

I'm tired of the sickness.

I'm tired how my room mate uses all the hot water.

I'm tired of this stress.

I'm tired of feeling the lack of confidence.

I'm tired of comparison.

I'm tired of putting on a happy face.

I'm tired of the ignorance.

I'm tired of the naive.

I'm tired of people walking on each other.

I'm tired of a handful of people.

I'm tired of all of it.

I plan on doing something about it.

I miss how the beginning of the year was, when everyone got along with everyone & we were here for the same reason & that was easy to accept.

Day 132: Hulk Hands

I now am sporting Betty Page bangs. I told you all how I hated my hair in my last post...so I fixed it; though my mother & sisters would beg to differ that I fixed anything at all.

I don't have a specific style. By that I mean I don't try & dress a certain way. Apparently I am very vintage however. That's okay in my book though.

Massachusetts did a shoot of me as the 'working woman' illustration. It turned out rather awesome & i'll be sure to post it when he gets done editing it.

I need reassuring of myself. Massachusetts got on the subject of relationships. I told him how I can't see anyone being head over heals for me. Like, I couldn't possibly imagine someone wanting to be around me because they love everything about it. Just a thought.

I met a new kid today. He's going to be one of the students going to Hallmark for the January class. He's going to be known as Ohio. I can tell already that he's going to be one we hangout with until we graduated in June. He's obviously from Ohio but other than that, he's very easy to talk to. I feel like I've known him before.

We have Phase II final & one photograph of which we have to do is yet another self portrait. To say the least, I need Hulk Smash Hands for this photograph. Not the cloth ones but the legit ones that got recalled because kids were knocking each other out with them. Anyways, I 'won' a pair on Ebay only to find out that my excitement was cut short when I looked a little closer & realized that they were two right....yes, you read correctly...TWO RIGHT Hulk Hands........I can't even comment on how silly I feel but hey, life is either funny or it really sucks. This was just funny.

I don't have much to write about today other than the fact that I'm very sleepy & slightly in a downer mood. Yes, I Lisa, am a bit blue today. Hard to believe, I know.

Day 131: Sexy eyes

Sippen on tea like it's fine wine, taking photographs & being a decent human being is what i'm best at.

I'm getting a pet. Soon hopefully. Only a selected few know what it is.

In all honesty, I have no idea what to write about other than the fact that this is me keeping up with one of my resolutions.

I would tell you about my day but not much was done. I didn't have class till 1pm today, which was nice and for the whole awesome four hours of class I had we had portrait studio. Dinner. Now here...drinking tea, soaking clothes pins for tomorrow in commercial, texting Massachusetts & Alaska, listening to Silversun Pickups...trying to conjure up something to write.

I need to clean my room & I hate my hair cut.

Welp, heres the photograph I took today...

<--There is Colorado, Massachusetts, Vermont & Virginia. Massachusetts got taught how to shoot 'sexy eyes' by the others today. I taught my boys well...except Vermont, he kinda already knew.

Day 127-130: Bow tie wearing ferret

FIRST POST OF THE NEW YEAR!

I know New Years already passed but I figured that I would start one of my many New Year resolutions now. Well, actually how about I tell all you what 'they' are & why:

-No more drinking.

I never really understood they point in drinking except for the sole purpose of making a fool of yourself & getting away with it because you were said arguably 'drunk'.

-No more pop sippin'.

Yes, pop sippin'. Simply enough, I drink WAY too much pop.

-Keep up with my blog.

I only have six more months here & the whole point of this blog was to update it everyday for you guys, but as you know I have been slaking so this is where it all is going to change. Also, I'm going to take & post a photo everyday on here. I mean, I AM in photography school!

-No more procrastinating.

Both Alaska & I made that a New Year resolution. Both of us know we do it way too much.

And last but not least...drum roll please....badahm badahm badahm badahm...that actually sounds like a horse galloping if you say it out loud like I bet all of you just did...anyways...

-NO MORE CURSING!

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Can you believe it? Yeah, me either. Why did I decide to give up swearing? I should have know you would wonder that. Well, unlike the figment characters that play a part in this blog...Alaska, Colorado, Maine, Virgina, Massachusetts etc. are...get this...not just states...THEY ARE PEOPLE TOO! I see them everyday & as joyous as that might be, my sailor of a potty mouth isn't. They are however used to it but as for me, I don't really strike a fancy with it. They are all just acronyms for much longer things anyways. We are just too lazy to say 'For Unlawful Carnal Knowledge' every time we burn a finger.

Welp, that's all I have for you guys for today. Oh, I'm also back in MA after a long month away. Bittersweet I suppose. I'm bombarded with assignments to make up & am having mixed emotions about coming back. Also, Massachusetts dyed his hair blue & I love it. He also got me the world's smallest present, wrapped in the smallest newspaper comic wrapping paper all topped off with the smallest bow known to man. Inside this magnificently tiny gift was a little glass hedgehog he found at a candy story. I named it Melvin. Another thing, I'm convinced I got bad juju from a ferret key chain a Chinese lady gave me. Which I think is highly rude of it since I complimented it on it's pink bow tie.

<--This was taken a few days ago not today but it still counts.

<--Massachusetts' blue hair.

<--Bad juju ferret. Like his bow tie?